Wednesday, November 14, 2007

i must seriously learn how to forgive...
as a christian... i am totally not in touch with the act of graciousness...
not only i dun forgive the pple who once hurt me in a way or another...
i also dun forget watever dat has happened...
much worse... i harbour bitter thoughts about it....

i know it is very bad of me to be like dat...
not only applies to having the right behaviour dat christians should have....
but also something not right for a normal person to have such ill intentions....

though i will not take revenge back on the person....
but i will have a immense disliking for the person...
watever the person tries to do whether now or in the future will have a bias judgement...

not referring to teeny weeny stuffs like forgeting to do something or something in that context...
but something else that i feel i have the right to feel angry about it...
i have the right to feel the way i am feeling now....

i won't be so bad as to wish the person to be not successful...
but i dun tink i will patronise him/her...
(but if the stuffs are like utterly fabulous.... i might go back on my words)

at this moment....
with no one to tell me whether i'm right or wrong....
i am totally convinced that i'm have to right to be upset...

cuz in the first place....
facts should have been got right....
before even offering the idea...
not after spending like quite abit of time on it...
and without any warning... everything's changed....

it was my study period...
and i sleep late everynite...
and the amount of i time i spent doing up the design...
and the amount of trouble i had to go thru to get pple to help...
even to the extend of getting upset with my mum cuz she does not want to support me...

and in the end...
all crumbled...
without even an apology...
well there was one but not in the right context...

i am calm now....
trying to curb the anger...
and restraining myself from spewing vulgarities...
cuz it is a freaking 2 am in the morning...




































hmpf... to get back....
i might do up one myself...
no one knows...
wat i might do....






































especially if i'm considerably upset about the matter...

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