Tuesday, February 21, 2006

i saw fireworks in the nite sky just now....
within such a close view....
it was beautiful....
very beautiful....

as most will know how happy i am to be able to see fireworks...
the display of lights in the nite sky....
simply breathtaking....
though it is a just a short moment....
it is enough to make me very happy....

but just now...
when i went of of my flat to watch it...
the feeling.... different...

the feeling of loneliness crept in...
the feeling of missing overwhelmed...

hard to bear...
difficult to bear...

piled on with the lousy internet restrictions...
it makes it all the more much difficult...

with the pinning getting more and more each day...
the more i feel turning into a different person....

a fake person...
all smiles....
so friendly...
so talkative...
behaving as though nothing is wrong...
dat's me

how i hate myself now...
so fake... dat even i cannot stand myself...

tears to bed...
wayward thoughts...

feel as though....
it is slowly eating into the real me...
and soon i feel...
i will lose myself...

r a ! n a _____________*

The Ger



~*Serene ` Raina*~

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