Tuesday, May 03, 2005

been having a topsy turvy lifestyle nowadays...
sleeping when everyone is awake n awake when everyone is sleeping...
have been faithfully playing maple everyday...
funny thing but it just seems to take ur troubles away for a period of time...
it doesn't strain ur mind thinking of problems dat can never be solved...

it is not a very fun game after playing for long...
it gets bored...
but i'm still stuck to it....
drowning myself in it might be the only form of escape from reality....

i will never understand the feeling of being despised by someone....
nor can i ever understand the feeling of being looked down...
cuz i've never experienced anything like dat before....

but u will also never understand the feeling to be sandwiched in the middle...
to cope with the stress from 2 sides...

but for everything....
i choose to avoid...
i choose to escape...
i choose to pretend its inexistence...

call me timid or watever...
but really facing the problem...
and doing something to solve it...
will be a huge feat...
and the chances of successing now...
is near zero...

In the future....
will be a different story....
i know u you will be able to do it...
and wat u need is just time....

borne into a family...
is not be choice...
cultivating one's character...
is by the trials n tribulations one goes thru...
depends on everything....
ur family background...
ur childhood...
ur friends...
and ur experience...

having a character that everyone destest....
is not a very proud thing...
having friends that are together with u cuz of ur position...
is a even worse thing...
thinking that u are superior den everyone....
is the worse of the lot....

i am not like u....
i wan to be well-liked by pple...
i dun wan to be hated by pple...
i cannot live ur life...
i have my own life to lead....
in the way that i wan...

r a ! n a _____________*

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