Friday, March 04, 2005

i've been hurting inside since yesterday... hurting inside since i saw u yesterday.... and till now... it is still hurting...

usually after a day... the pain will subside... and i will only feel sad... but for dis time... it is still hurting.... and it is so painful.... i cannot take it anymore...

for once yesterday dat i prayed dat my fone will not ring... but it still did.... although it is just messages... but at dat point of time.... i really din wan u to say anything.... and since the messages came in... i had to reply... cuz i will never not leave u in the lurch...

and each word i type out pierced thru my heart.... do u noe how much it takes to wait.... do u noe how much it takes for me to see u like dat.... and do u noe how much it takes of me to leave u in the background....

i guess u really did not noe how much i went thru without u.... and how much pain dat i bear throughout all this while.... all this pain is killing me....

i guess u did not noe how things will evolve aound my side whenever u tell me anything... is feeling bad the only feeling u felt? i dun need u to feel bad.... i dun need u to pity me...
how can u tink in the way dat watever decision u make.... i will continue to live on.... how can u tink that i would be able to find my happiness without u...

as i have told u my happiness is u.... so if u left me.... means my happiness left me.... and the only way to get it back... is that the person whom i love the most comes back to me...

i will be waiting.... waiting for the day when the person i love the most comes back to me... and if dat day doesn't come.... i'll be waiting till time stops for me... or rather wait till my time is up...

of course... i hope the latter does not come true....

my eyes hurt.... too much crying i suppose...
the pain in my heart... is undescribable...

i noe u noe me well enough.... dat i'm just as stuborn.... and will never let go....

~* if i wanted to leave..... i would have left long ago.... why wait till now... n out myself thru all the pain... i've sunk too deeply into this whole thing.... and the chance of getting out is no longer visible for me.... please gimme ur hand... to save me from all the pain... *~

~* i need ur love...
i need ur presence...
i need ur hugs...
i need ur kisses...
i need u to shelter me from all the pain....
i need u to be around....
i need u very very badly.... *~

r a ! n a _____________*

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