Thursday, March 03, 2005

why do tears always fall....
tears are suppose to be a form of release for all the pain u're feeling....
but why it doesn't apply to me....

i'm feeling worse den ever.... and the pain just won't go away.... in fact it gets more painful as each second passes....

if tears were really a form of release for me... i would gladly cry all i wan and later forget about him.... but they can't help anymore.... i tink one fine day.... i will surely cry until i go blind.... n i will never forget him... cuz he means too much to me... so i just have to cry till eternity or until he comes back to me..... which ever dat come first....

Pain.... it is so unbearable.... i would rather it be a real wound.... that bleeds.... at least after a while it heals.... or a plaster can be used... to stop the bleeding....
but it is not.....
it is a pain in the heart.... it is a pain felt within and it is so hard to heal.... it is like a stab thru the heart.... the knife is pulled out... and another stab is given.... and the process is repeated....
besides all dis.... the pain is definately much more..... much more till i cannot describe... and it is getting worse....

tears are so uncontrollable.... they just flow like nobody's business.... how i wish i can just cry out loud n freely.... so after dat i can feel better... but i can't....
cuz if i do.... my family will get into the picture..... n force their stupid ideas on me....
so everything has to be hush hush....
under my blanket.... it is a different story.... i will cry till everything is soaked...
even poor mr ray's face gets soaked....

i've lost my mind.... i dun even have the ability to control my tears... i dun even have the ability to stop myself from shivering.... i dun have the ability to just keep u out of my mind for just one second....

why whenever i cry.... u are not there for me....
why when i need someone... u are not there beside me....
why when i need a hug... i cannot go to u....
why do i still love u so much.... after all dis pain which is killing me....

where were u when i need a hand to hold mine....
where were u when i'm sick n needs someone to take care of me.....
where were u when i need a hug most....
where were u when i need a shoulder to cry on....
where were u when i need support....
where were u when i need u the most.....

i need u around so badly.... i can't take it anymore.... i'm suffering so much....
please come n console me.... please....
please come n give me a hug.... so i can get over all dis....
please be with me when i need u.... even if it would be a little while.... i just really really need u around.... i just reallu really love u....

so love me back... and dis is all dat i plead u.....

r a ! n a _____________*

The Ger



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